It's been a while...

My last post...I kinda left everyone hanging so to speak on the adoption front. Although some things are too personal to share and some we just simply can't because of protecting the privacy of others, I will say that things have been quite active this year. We have had a handful of contacts that e-mail once...things like "your the family for my baby!" and then we e-mail them and no response. Odd...but hey it's a tough decision so for whatever reason, they changed their mind, went with someone else...we'll never know. Adoption is not for the faint of heart, I have said that before but it truly is not. It's an up and down process that takes you through every emotion possible and sometimes in a very short period of time. I had been asked recently, why I was still holding onto something even though I knew it may cause me pain. My response...this process wasn't a process that I expected to be without pain. Hopefully no one is that uneducated about adoption after going through everything you have to to get certified that they think this is a breeze and not without pain. We all know there will be ups and downs but the bottom line is, that when you feel it's right you will go through whatever you have to to get there. Most people don't shy away from having kids because pregnancy is uncomfortable and labor hurts. It's the end result that matters. What matters is that we find our child. The process getting there may be tough but we also know that there is something amazing waiting on the other side of that and that's what we are holding out for. That makes everything worth it. Of course, we can't wait to be on that other side and secretly we wish that a birth mother would call us from the hospital and say "here's your baby!". Now wouldn't that be nice?! It could happen...and I'm sure that would have it's downsides too. We truly would love to have a great relationship and bond with our birth mother and our birth father, so even though it's very nice to entertain the thought of having that kind of adoption, we would enjoy having a much deeper relationship than that. We know that whatever is meant to be will happen, every adoption has a story and what's beautiful is that no two stories are the same but they do lead to one thing and that is that the families find their child...the one that was meant to be in their family for eternity. We can't wait to hold our baby in our arms and until that day we will continue to have faith and know that the time will come when we can.

We thank everyone for your prayers and for continuing to help spread the word. It truly is humbling. I had a friend text me today and she just said, I'm thinking about you and saying extra prayers for your family today. Such a simple thing to do, but it touched me so deep. To know we are being thought of and prayed for gives us a sense of deep humility and gratitude. We know we are not alone, our Savior is always there but he also sends his angels to surround us and we have seen the errand of angels among us many times. So, for now - onward and upward we go continuing on the path and knowing that some day our prince or princess will come. :-)