End of the trip...:-(

This trip was the longest trip we have ever taken anywhere so I had this expectation that it was going to seem so long & that I might even have a desire to come back home. Yeah...well that didn't happen! It went by so fast that next year I am going to try and squeeze 3 weeks out of Jason...I'm crossing my fingers! The weather was absolutely gorgeous and there are so many things to do there. I miss Minnesota summers so much. However...I do not miss the giant biting bugs! There were bugs everywhere! Not just bugs but huge flying bugs & flying bugs that bite or sting. One can only handle so much outside being absoulely going crazy. Tyson actually ended up getting stung in the head while he was outside with my mom while she was doing yard work. Later my dad and Jason found wasp nest near the area my mom and Tyson were at. He cried but was a good trooper about it.

After we got back from the cabin we spent the next few days visiting my grandparents. Both sets of my grandparents are still alive which is remarkable and so nice. We grew up about 10 minutes way from each of them so they were a big part of our lives. My mom's mom has alzheimers and ended up in the hospital while we were there & my dad's mom has bone cancer. It was so sad to see them that way I could hardly fight back the tears. It makes me wonder why the agine process has to be so awful? I don't want to get old! I know I'm still fairly young but you know what is scarey is that I remember when my mom was 30 (I'm not there yet...but close) and I remember when my grandparents were the same age as my parents. Those years went by so quickly & now they are dying & I am thinking where did the time go?

Seeing both my grandma's in such poor condition made me think about where my time has gone since being married and how I wished I would have kept in touch better than I have. You just get so wrapped up in your own life and your own little world that the things that matter the most are not the things you end up doing. It's sad but it was also good to reflect on those things and make a note to do better. There is not going back, we can only move forward. There is not sense in dwelling in the past too long...I think it helps to think about things if it helps you change for the better in the future. We all have regrets and things we would change if we could go back in time and then there are things that we most defintiely wouldn't change. I believe that is just part of life and learning and growing as much as it hurts sometimes, I guess it's what makes us stronger and better.

So I left Minnesota with the feeling that it most likely will be the last time I will be able to see both my grandma's alive. We left with my mom who came back with us but my dad stayed. I am trying to get back into the groove but just can't seem to get there yet. I sat here on Saturday surfing the web...while toys were scattered all over house, suitcases 1/2 unpacked, dirty house, dirty dishes in the sink...and all i could do was sit. For those of you who know me well...know that I am a bit OCD and that is truly out of character for me. Normally I would have stayed up Friday night when we came back until the wee hours of the morning putting everything away, doing laundry, cleaning, etc. but this time was different and you know it wasn't all that bad. :-) I need to take more time to relax I guess! But I am sure I'll be kicking back into gear soon...hopefully! LOL!

Back to the hot ugly state of Arizona that I have grown to love so much. It is good to be back but there is much more of me wishing I was still in MN....


My bestfriends from MN....we got to squeeze in lunch before I left. It is always so good to catch up with them...sometimes it's almost like we have never been apart.


Tyson absolutely loves my Grandpa Melvin & he was loving him even more when he brought out the peanuts! He thought it was so cool to crack the shell & get something inside.

My parents and I with Jason & the kids and my dad's mom...my Grandma Vonnie. :-)